Random Musings

Big Changes Can Be Hard

This is more of a personal post.

I’ve had a lot going on lately. Sometimes life throws  the whole book at you. My absence has not been due to negligence. I find blogging very relaxing. It allows me to connect with others with shared interests. I just haven’t had the time to sit down and do a lot of anything lately that I love doing. My husband and I have been doing a top to bottom remodel of a house we bought with the intention of flipping. Ideally we want to knock this out in a few months because we are planning to make a big relocation to Portland.

Why Portland?

There are a number of reasons. My husband is from Oregon. I’ve been out there a few times and I love it. We have been thinking about moving to that area of the country for while now. I’ve lived in Dallas my whole life. Dallas is so metro centric and hot. Its a concrete jungle. Everything is man made, including most of the parks. I crave the ability to get to go out into the wild and meditate and connect with the gods. I’ve been at my job for about 5 years and I’ve gone as far as I can go in my position and there is no room for growth in my department. We have also gone through several staff changes that have been less than ideal. I make pretty good money but I need more than that. I’ve grown tired of the corporate grind. Working in commercial real state is a hard business and working in the legal portion of it is exhausting. I want more time to devout to my spirituality and ritual. I’ve gotten restless. I have the deep desire to start fresh. I don’t really have any family and my mother passed away two years ago in October so I don’t have any anchors here. If you were given the opportunity to start fresh somewhere, to completely pay off all of your debts and start new would you take it? Who wouldn’t? I’m ready for the next chapter in life. New places, new experiences, new people.

With all of the hustle and bustle my practice in itself has been uprooted. Most of my altar items and books at this point are in boxes. I closed my Etsy shop temporarily until I get settled. I even have much of my tarot collection in boxes. I’ve kept out those decks and books that I go for on a daily basis. In my BOTA lessons I’m focusing on the Wheel of Fortune. There is an ebb and flow. I’ve just got to go with the flow. My intentions are set and are being executed. I do a visualization meditation on my goals and am using Tarot as my guide to listening to my inner voice.

So if you see me posting less in the next coming months that is why! I’m going through some major life changes. I hope for the better. Its all very exciting and nerve racking. I have my fears. What if this is a bad idea? What if this doesn’t work? I’m keeping going like the fool filled with dreams and fancies. Isn’t that what makes life exciting though? The unknown. At the end of the day we live in a world of unknowns just creating constructs to make us feel that we have a grasp on reality.

Here I go plunging  into the wild unknown (tarot reference there!) . I hope you all stay with me on my journey.


Random Musings

Tarot and the Spirit

Dictionary.com lists 25 definitions of the spirit, here are just a few:

  1. the principle of conscious life; the vital principle in humans, animating the body or mediating between body and soul.
  2. the incorporeal part of humans: present in spirit though absent in body.
  3. an attitude or principle that inspires, animates, or pervades thought, feeling, or action: the spirit of reform.
  4. the soul or heart as the seat of feelings or sentiments, or as prompting to action: a man of broken spirit.

I would like you to take a moment and think about what the spirit means to you. Can you identify with any of the above?

Let me just start on my ramble and try to explain myself…

Tarot consists of four elements, these elements are fire, water, air and earth. In addition to these four elements there is a fifth – the spirit. To me, the elements are encompassed by the spirit. The spirit relies on these more material elements just like the elements rely on the spirit to be imbued with the life force or aether. If we take this into consideration we can see how the entirety of the Tarot relates to the spirit. Some people only associate the Major Arcana with more spiritual matters and the Minor Arcana with more mundane day to day matters. I feel like every part of the Tarot can be related to the spirit and soul. Through each card we can learn a life lesson to better our spirit on its journey in this lifetime. Matter and spirit are not totally separate forces, they are closely intertwined. There is a symbioses between the two. The mistake I think many people make is seeing these at two totally separate things.  Let me break down each suite and explain further.

Wands – Fire: This suite represents the fire that ignites your spirit. It relates to intuition and that creative spark. Have you ever heard of someone having a creative spirit or a fiery spirit? The spirit houses this drive. Its important to nurture your souls creativity and passion. If we look across the suite of wands we see all of these characters poised to take off on some passionate endeavor, we see the wands themselves shooting across an open landscape with such force behind them. The spirit is being driven and directed in the material realm to feed upon the fire within. Likewise our material body and soul is being fed by the spirit.

Cups – Water: The Cups represent the whole range of human emotions. We can look through this suite and see the full spectrum. Emotion by default is closely and mostly related to the Ego.  Even though most of our emotion is rooted in this there is a higher spiritual emotion or exaltation we experience. Have you ever been so moved during ritual or spell work you could feel it in your core? I do believe that your spirit can be moved in the presence of god to an emotional state we as human beings cannot comprehend, it is the closest thing to being one with god that we can feel. To me this s most closely pictured in the ten of cups, the pentacle of emotional completion.

Swords – Air: Reason, justice, logic, the intellectual realm is the sphere of Hod – these are all of the things we see represented in the Swords. The swords deal with our minds, whether is be mental anguish or happiness. The realm of Fire is greatly dependent on Air to see it through. Once we birth a creative idea or endeavor we need our intellect and reason to see us through to make the best outcome. It helps govern the spirits creativity and direct it to an appropriate end.

Pentacles – Earth: Malkuth – or the material realm is a direct manifestation of the subconscious and the spirit. The spirit uses the human body and earthly realm to manifest into form. If we look throughout the journey of the Pentacles we can see the trials and tribulations the spirit faces manifesting in the material. The spirit uses the human body and material realm as a vessel in order to expand and grow. Each experience we face in this realm has a direct impact on the spirit and what we will face in the next incarnation.

You may have a totally different viewpoint and disagree with me entirely and that is totally okay! A trap I think many people get in is seeing things only one way based on one particular source. My opinions change over time like everyone else based on my experiences. Do you see things differently? Is there any suite that you feel is more related to the spiritual experience?

Card Reflections


Did anyone notice in my last post I spelt the word least wrong in the title of my post? I draft medical office leases for doctors as my day job and I guess I had work on my mind! It has been corrected. I can’t believe it took me this long to notice.

Work has been on my mind a lot lately. Ive been faced with several big choices lately that will impact the future of my husband and I. Like at the moment we are deciding on whether to sell our house and move to a totally different state and start over. In addition to this move I’m thinking of quitting my corporate day job and start my own business. I have a few different ideas, mostly I’m just so tired of working the in corporate world.  Ive been doing readings for these challenges seeking guidance from the all. Judgement has been coming up a lot. That inspired me to write a blog post about it. I think it is a card a lot of people have difficulty interpreting. As we get farther along in the major arcana things get more muddled. We go from defined archetypes to more abstract concepts. There is an accumulation of experiences leading up the the Universe where we achieve total enlightenment. Before  we reach that blissful state where everything is going great and we reach the pinnacle of achievement we have to go through a spiritual awakening. An epiphany or the last call to answer the angels trumpet.

The Judgement card can mean a time of self evaluation or meditation. You may be faced with some huge choices that will require very careful consideration. Most depictions of this card depict people rising from their graves at the sound of Gabriel’s trumpet. These people are being given second chance, they are undergoing a spiritual awakening.  To me there is a sense of relief and release, they are being freed of any burdens. The choices your now faced with are an accumulation of past acts and there will be fruition.  You may be at a cross roads. Upright this card is a good sign. Finally there will be breakthrough. If this card appeared in reverse I would caution one to take heed. There is the potential to miss out on momentous moments. This is not the time to get ahead of oneself or get cocky. Careful consideration and reflection is key. The decision ahead will be a defining moment. This may even point to to an eureka moment where the path or choice becomes clear.

This card is sometimes called Aeon. It connect Hod with Malkuth on the tree of life. It is ruled by the Hebrew letter Shin which means fang or tooth. Ideas are being manifested into reality at a final accumulation which is directly represented by the connection on the tree of life between Hod (the realm of mental capacity and ideas) and Malkuth (the kingdom, the final level of concrete manifestation).

This card can be a good meditative tool if you are working on bringing something to fruition in your life. Look at it to remind yourself of the brevity of your choices. What you manifest on the subconscious place will manifest on the conscious plane.  When Gabriel blows his trumpet for you will you be ready to make the choice set before you?

Some other correspondences going along with this card:

  • Its planet is Pluto which governs synthesis of information, evaluation, personal judgement.
  • This card can correspond to either fire or water. I can see it from both sides. This card exhibits a burning energy, but it still has much to so with the element of water and matters of the subconscious.
  • The herb associated if golden seal, which can be used as a laxative or antiseptic.

Do you have a different view of this card? What is your take?

Deck Review

StarchildTarot Akashic Edition- Review

I received this little gem in the mail last week. Honestly I’ve been on the fence about the Starchild Tarot. I wasn’t sure if I wanted to pay $70.00 for it and I wasn’t sure if it was a deck that I would really connect with. I’m not a huge fan of digital images being used on Tarot cards. Ive seen it done really poorly on decks (has anyone seen the Voyager Tarot?). I’m pretty picky with this form of art. In the end I’m so glad I bought this deck because it is stunning. I’m not sure how much I will actually use it for readings though. I see this as becoming more of a jumping off point for visualizations during meditations. In looking at these cards I can just visualize going into the purple and blue landscape on some sort of spiritual journey or using them as a focal point to achieve a certain goal.

I love the box. I’m so glad we are seeing more and more of artists taking the time to make fantastic packaging for their decks. I believe I mentioned this before but I can’t gush over the packaging enough. The box is gorgeous. It has mixture of art deco and Egyptian artwork going on. It is very sturdy. Very similar to the Wild Unknown Tarot packaging.

The deck itself is a standard playing card size. The card stock is sturdy. It may pose a challenge to shuffle at first. It reminds me of the card stock the Wild Unknown Tarot is made of, though not as rough it still has a matte feel to it. I find these decks that are made of a real matte card stock can be a challenge to shuffle. This is why the wild Unknown has been siting on my bookshelf untouched. I find it impossible to work with.  Every bit of it is eye candy. From the golden glided edges to the dreamy artwork. I didn’t even realize it was going to have gilded edges until I received it! Such an awesome bonus. This deck is almost to pretty and high quality to use. I do wonder how to edges will hold up over time though if your giving this deck a lot of use.

I do want to point out that this deck is not a Rider-Waite deck. This deck is totally open to interpretation. Some might even call it more new age. I think this deck for me will take some time to work with to get a good feel with. I could see how to some people it could be hard to interpret the images on the cards as this is a very intuitive deck. The only thing that I’m not really a big fan of is the court cards. Some of them blend together. I have been having trouble connecting them to their correspondences. The graphics themselves are gorgeous. I love the color scheme used throughout. This rich landscape pulls you in. There is scattered sacred geometry throughout the deck, esoteric sorts will love this. You can tell each card was intricately thought through.

Overall I do think this deck is worth the price tag. I don’t have the first addition so I can’t make any comparison. I’m really looking forward to what  comes next with this deck.