Random Musings

Big Changes Can Be Hard

This is more of a personal post.

I’ve had a lot going on lately. Sometimes life throws  the whole book at you. My absence has not been due to negligence. I find blogging very relaxing. It allows me to connect with others with shared interests. I just haven’t had the time to sit down and do a lot of anything lately that I love doing. My husband and I have been doing a top to bottom remodel of a house we bought with the intention of flipping. Ideally we want to knock this out in a few months because we are planning to make a big relocation to Portland.

Why Portland?

There are a number of reasons. My husband is from Oregon. I’ve been out there a few times and I love it. We have been thinking about moving to that area of the country for while now. I’ve lived in Dallas my whole life. Dallas is so metro centric and hot. Its a concrete jungle. Everything is man made, including most of the parks. I crave the ability to get to go out into the wild and meditate and connect with the gods. I’ve been at my job for about 5 years and I’ve gone as far as I can go in my position and there is no room for growth in my department. We have also gone through several staff changes that have been less than ideal. I make pretty good money but I need more than that. I’ve grown tired of the corporate grind. Working in commercial real state is a hard business and working in the legal portion of it is exhausting. I want more time to devout to my spirituality and ritual. I’ve gotten restless. I have the deep desire to start fresh. I don’t really have any family and my mother passed away two years ago in October so I don’t have any anchors here. If you were given the opportunity to start fresh somewhere, to completely pay off all of your debts and start new would you take it? Who wouldn’t? I’m ready for the next chapter in life. New places, new experiences, new people.

With all of the hustle and bustle my practice in itself has been uprooted. Most of my altar items and books at this point are in boxes. I closed my Etsy shop temporarily until I get settled. I even have much of my tarot collection in boxes. I’ve kept out those decks and books that I go for on a daily basis. In my BOTA lessons I’m focusing on the Wheel of Fortune. There is an ebb and flow. I’ve just got to go with the flow. My intentions are set and are being executed. I do a visualization meditation on my goals and am using Tarot as my guide to listening to my inner voice.

So if you see me posting less in the next coming months that is why! I’m going through some major life changes. I hope for the better. Its all very exciting and nerve racking. I have my fears. What if this is a bad idea? What if this doesn’t work? I’m keeping going like the fool filled with dreams and fancies. Isn’t that what makes life exciting though? The unknown. At the end of the day we live in a world of unknowns just creating constructs to make us feel that we have a grasp on reality.

Here I go plunging  into the wild unknown (tarot reference there!) . I hope you all stay with me on my journey.


Deck Review

The English Magic Tarot – a Review


I really wanted to like this deck.

I usually do reviews on decks that I absolutely adore. I was initially excited reading about this deck before it came out. It sounded right up my alley. This deck is centered around its title English Magic – primary the occult revival of the nineteenth century and the Golden Dawn.  It has a lot of potential and I see what the creators were trying to achieve, but I think they fell short.

This deck was created by Rex Van Ryn, Steve Dooley and Andy Letcher published by Weiser. It comes in a box with a 149 page guidebook. The box itself looks good on my book shelf. It is sturdy and of good quality. I also like the guide book. It actually has some good card interpretations which can be used outside of this deck. I enjoyed flipping through and reading their take on each card. You can tell that they did put a lot of thought into this deck.

What I do not like are the cards themselves.


I hate the backs of these cards. I just think they are ugly. They are not totally reversible due to the colors of the cards under the hands. I was really hoping this deck would have something more abstract that went in line with the theme. I think the image is a very odd choice and off putting. The card stock is flimsy, they easily bend. If your a heavy shuffler these will definitely wear over time. It doesn’t feel very high quality. The cards are just very thin.


Each suite is color coded with a very large border. I think the borders are too intrusive. I also favor borderless decks though. The large borders take away the details of the wonderful artwork. I do like the style of artwork in this deck. Its very whimsical and has a cartoonish feel. Interestingly, the Major Arcana does not have borders. For me this is my favorite part of the deck. I really love the Majors. I just really wish the entire deck looked like they do. I think I’ll end up taking out the Majors and using them on their own. There are interesting little phrases and words written on each card in different magical alphabets consisting of Runic, Enochian, Hebrew. I am not familiar enough with the runic alphabet to be able to read these messages without looking at some reference material. I have enjoyed deciphering the hidden images and phrases. They add a nice little depth of meaning to each card. Due to the color coding of the minors and the adherence to the Rider-Waite tradition this could be a good deck for a beginner. The meanings are easily accessible to those of a less advanced degree.


Overall I don’t see this as a deck I’ll be reaching a lot for. I haven’t done very many readings with it because I just can’t get into the energy of the deck. I have it on my shelf as mostly a collectors item. I would love to hear if you have a differing opinion. There are some great things about this deck, I just feel like some of the artistic choices really hinder it from all that it could be.